Grieving For All Major Losses
The grieving process can occur when you experience any major loss. Most people acknowledge that losing someone close to you leads to a period of grief. Many people don’t realise that grieving can occur at other times of our life. Major life changes are grieved as well. This post is about coping with loss and grief after major life changes.
Grief After a Change in Your Health
Grieving after major life events such as changes in your employment status, or an illness or injury, can impact you in a similar way to the loss of a loved one. Although it is not as acute, it is a type of grief as well. I wrote about the loss of my role as a Registered Nurse due to post mastectomy complications previously. I have been grieving for the change in my health, from being a functioning member of society, to not being able to work.
A few weeks ago I started working with an Exercise Physiologist to build up my upper body strength. Because I wasn’t allowed to exercise for six months after my bilateral mastectomies, my upper body strength was very poor. Adding to my issues, I have had chronic back pain for years due to degeneration in my spine. My aim is to return to my job as a Registered Nurse. Because I work for Queensland Health, I am unable to return on light duties (as per policy). I need to be able to do my job 100% including CPR and heavy patient cares, which requires a lot of upper body strength.
Coping With Disappointment
I started the program with great enthusiasm, believing that the light was at the end of the tunnel with regards to my prolonged recovery. My first disappointment was being told it would take three months to get me to that point. This is on top of the eight months I have just had. Sometimes I feel like I’ll never get back to work, and that’s when I get really despondent.
The second blow was just how much pain I had. I was using muscles that had been neglected for eight months so they were crying out at having to work! On top of that I was doing half the exercises wrong, hence the pain. That was a week wasted. The exercises seem so basic, but they are making me relearn movements so that I minimise the amount of work my back and leg muscles have been doing. Something as simple as sit to stand – using the correct method is nothing like I normally would do it.
Once again I’m frustrated at my slow progress. I’ve never shed as many tears as I have this year, apart from when I was grieving for my parents and sister. It does feel like a kind of grief – I’m grieving for the loss of my health and my ability to work. Even acknowledging to myself that I’m coping with loss and grief doesn’t make it any easier to bear.
Coping When Someone Close To You Is Dying
I have written about my parents-in-law previously. My mother-in-law is in the final stages of lung cancer. We had the palliative care team initial home visit last week. They are an incredible team who will help my mother-in-law stay in her own home for as long as possible, and in hospital when the time comes. While my in-laws are excellent for their age, they still struggle sometimes so we are grateful for the extra help they will receive.
We have been planning a surprise birthday party for my mother-in-law. It is very emotional, knowing that this will be her last. I don’t think there will be a dry eye there on the day. I have been planning my father-in-law’s 90th birthday celebration as well. The amount of planning these two events takes just compounds an already busy time of the year.
Grieving Before They Have Died
I feel like I’m grieving for them before they’ve even gone. I felt the same when dad was dying of pancreatic cancer. You’re seeing them deteriorate, and their quality of life diminish as the cancer takes over. When they no longer enjoy food because their sense of taste and smell is gone, and simple activities sap their strength and leave them breathless, it rips your heart out.
The Affect Grieving Has On Your Life
I had plans for blog posts that still aren’t written. My time and enthusiasm for writing just hasn’t been there. Some things are more important, like spending time with family. When time is limited, you prioritise. I felt compelled to write to my remaining uncles and aunties. They are all aging so quickly and none of them live close. They are the last link to my parents so I value keeping in contact with them.
Nurturing Yourself When You Are Grieving
I am nurturing myself in order to cope with these circumstances. I’m making sure to continue activities that I know help me deal with stress. I never miss a day where I walk my dog for half an hour. I write in my journal daily and do gentle yoga every couple of days. When I’m tired I have a rest. I’m also seeing a psychologist for counseling which has been really helpful while I am coping with loss and grief.
If you are also experiencing grief, or stressful life events, ask for help. You needn’t go through it alone. My GP has been supportive of my need to improve my strength and have counseling. Often women are the ones who prop up the rest of the family. While they care for everyone around them, they don’t get their needs met. Don’t be afraid to speak up.
When there is more than one stressor in your life, such as the ones I am dealing with, your ability to cope is stretched thin. Sometimes I wonder what my breaking point is. Life seems to throw more and more at me. I don’t have all the answers, as sometimes I really don’t do well.
Allowing the Grieving Process to Take Its Course
What I have learned from grieving in the past is that you can’t avoid it. If you deal with it by using substances like alcohol, you just delay the inevitable. The only way through grief is to let it run its course. Those days when you can’t get out of bed because you’re crying so much your whole body hurts, just go with it. Be kind to yourself and accept that it’s going to take time before life resembles any sort of normality.
There are some deaths you never get over, like my mum’s. It’ll be 30 years next year and it’s still hard without her. Losing someone else close to you reminds you of your previous losses. Small things remind you of them, and can take you back to a different time and place.
People Grieve in Different Ways
There is no right or wrong way to grieve. And every death will be different. People don’t cope the same way. Some like to spend as much time with the person while they still can, while others avoid seeing them sick. Grief can bring out the worst in people, especially when they don’t think the person is dealing with it the ‘right’ way. Patience and understanding are needed at a time when the whole family is coping with loss and grief.
Even though life won’t be “normal” for me for a while yet, I won’t give up. I have survived other difficult periods in my life and I know I can get through this. If you would like to read more about coping with difficult situations, you may enjoy:
- Prioritising Self Care
- Staying Positive Despite Setbacks
- Living the Healthiest Version of your Life
- Women of Courage – Inspiration to Overcome Life’s Challenges
3 responses to “Coping With Loss and Grief After Major Life Changes”
Thank you for sharing this post! It is easy to take care of those around you at the expense of your own needs, without even realizing it, following loss.
Hi Chris, that is so true. Especially the person who does most of the caring, such as the mother. Thank you for commenting, regards Christina
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